Never forget

One of the harder parts of losing a child is incredibly speed at which time flies after they are gone. I feel like the world is on fast forward, and one day soon, no one is going to remember you.

But not today. Today is all about remembering and sharing and being there for each other. It is a day of love and memories. Today, time stands still.

Today I released ten red balloons in honor of a few babies that have left us too soon. I know 10 barely touches on the amount of children that leave us every day, but it felt good to say their names. They are not, and will not, be forgotten.

This balloon is in honor of my brother Elijah. He was a miscarriage years and years ago, when I was about 8. It was the first time I had ever seen my parents cry.

Here are the balloons, flying over our farm, on their way to heaven.

As part of my dedication today, I went by myself to my son's grave site. I tied his balloon to his wind chime stand, took a few pictures, and when I turned around to get my video camera ready: whooosh. There went his balloon! I couldn't help but laugh. Corbin was not waiting around for me to get my camera ready; he wanted to play with his balloon! I managed to get a few pictures before his balloon completely disappeared. I was a little disappointed that I wasn't able to do video the dedication I had in mind, but I felt like Peanut was there.

Miss you baby.