2 month update

So far, my little big man can: hold his head up on his own, stand and support himself when held, he can "talk" to you, smile when you talk to him, and he is pretty much sleeping through the night. Last night, he got up at 2:30 but I think its because I laid him to sleep on his back. I usually lay him on his stomach and he will sleep all night. But yesterday...I took him into his room, laid him on his back in his crib and turned on his mobile. He LOVES to watch that thing! Anyway, mom called. I was sitting in the big blue chair in the baby room reading a magazine, waiting to see if he would fall asleep on his own. While I was talking to mom, I realized I didn't hear him talking to himself anymore. I get up to look, and he is passed out!! So I closed the door and went to bed myself. I guess he doesn't sleep as good on his back but its good to know he will go to sleep without me rocking him. I want to get him in that habit.



He is drinking about 3-5oz at a time. Nothing new there. I tried to give him baby cereal mixed with his formula and he didn't really seem to act more full then he would with just formula. Mom wanted me to try it to see if he would stay full longer but I don't think it did any good. I will try it later though if he seems to be hungry more often.


Hubby started at a new prison this week that is a lot closer then Mt. O was. It cuts his drive in half and we will save hundreds of dollars in gas. :-) He gets home earlier and doesn't have to leave as early so I get to spend more time with him and so does Baby C. Which also means he has more time to get on my nerves but that is husbands for you.

one month update

We finally weighed the baby today: 13 pounds! Not sure how long he is...I have to find my little tape measure but if you have checked out my pics on Shutterfly, there is a picture that shows him compared to me.

I am definitely aware of how stubborn he is. I had to let him scream for about 10 minutes because he wasn't hungry, I had just changed him, he didn't want his pacifier and he wasn't happy in any position I put him in. So after a crying bout, I popped his paci in his mouth and he passed right out. He is VERY stubborn when it comes to going to sleep. He will fight it with all he has. But eventually, he cannot fight it when I rock him to sleep. It never fails. :-)

Today went good till about 7 pm when he began fighting sleep and he finally passed out around 8:30. I was finally able to do some dishes and eat dinner. I am going to bed now before he wakes up again.

Night!

thinking

Baby C is a month and 4 days old and by God, it blew by fast! He is growing like a weed. He had horrible diaper rash this morning. Every time he had a dirty diaper or when I changed him, he would SCREEAM, the poor thing. Its better now but I felt so bad because there is nothing you can really do but wait. Other then that, he has had a really normal first month!

I have been doing pretty good, I think, handling him by myself for the larger portion of the day. Hubby works long hours and has to go to bed soon after getting home so I basically watch the baby all day and night for 3 or 4 days at a time. Today was rough, with Baby C screaming every 15 minutes for a couple hours, but finally he's feeling better so I can relax...*sigh*...

Some days I really start to miss home in Virginia. I left all my friends, school, work, and my family behind when I got married and moved. God knows I wouldn't trade what I have now for the world, but I can't help  but get lonely and miss having friends. I have a very small group of friends now and I just wish I had more people to call, more people that would stop by, or to just have more people that call to check in. I feel, sometimes, that its just me by myself and no one cares how I am doing. :-(  Hubby tells me that its partly my fault, that I'm shy and I don't associate with people enough. He says I need to go out and MAKE friends. OKAY...to me thats just ludacris. I do not like people, I don't like having to try and make small talk. I know when I meet someone if I want to be friends with them. I don't bother with people I know I don't want to talk to. *sigh*...I don't know.

He's here!!!

So it's been two weeks since C baby was born and I have to say, I am exhausted. The past couple days, I have had a time trying to get him to go to sleep. He eats and starts to fall asleep but as soon as you put him down, you have about 15 minutes before he's back up again. During the night, he sleeps just fine for hours at a time, but during the day, he doesn't seem to want to go to sleep. I know he's tired...he gets fussy for what seems like no reason and you can tell he needs to sleep but he tries his hardest not to. *sigh*...

To start at the beginning, C baby was born Sunday, February 21st at 10:28 pm. I went into early labor Saturday at 5 am and would be woken up with each contraction so I didn't sleep very well the rest of the night. The next day my parents came to visit and I didn't get a chance to take a nap, which is hell when you are 4 days away from being full term. I was woken up at 1 am Sunday morning with some very serious contractions. I got up and started walking around the house counting how far apart they were and I noticed that they were a consistent 5 minutes apart, not lasting quite a minute but still qualifying as real contractions. We called the hospital to get their opinion on whether I should come in or not and they said that I should so we got our bags together, grabbed the car seat and left for the hospital! I didn't realize that morning that it would be my last day being pregnant!!


We got checked in and taken into a room where I received my lovely hospital gown, which I had to get help getting into. Those things are very confusing if you have never put one on before! I had a horrible time with the IV needle...bless that nurse, but she could not find a vein in my hand. Those needles are HUGE and I have tiny veins so I ended up throwing up a few times. It wasn't the needle itself that made me sick, it was the nauseating feeling of that evil thing trying to find my vein. It felt like it was scraping against bone. It was horrible having them do it 4 times before they finally got it right. After that, I was taken into the labor and delivery room where we settled down to wait!


Little did I know, that I would be in labor, with horrible back pain, for 21 hours!! TWENTY ONE HOURS! When you have back labor and can NOT get comfortable to save your life, it seems like you are there for days. I do have to brag: I did NOT get an epidural :-D I said I wouldn't and by God, I did not!! The labor was not as bad as I thought it would be. Yes it hurts, but its a squeezing pain that is tolerable. I did end up getting some pain meds through the IV which let me sleep (finally) in-between contractions. I do believe if I had not gotten the meds, I would have passed out from exhaustion. I was that tired. I do have to complain about the God forsaken blood pressure monitor. It would crank up and squeeeeeeeze my arm so hard, it hurt worse then the contractions. And sometimes it would just attack me over and over when it couldn't get a good reading. I wanted to throw it out the window but they wouldn't let me. Stupid thing.


Finally, what seemed like days, I felt the urge to push and they brought the doctor in. I did not know how hard it would be to figure out what muscles to use when pushing!! Some women push a couple times and out pops a baby, but I just could not focus on the right muscles and ended up pushing for an hour and a half. At that point, I was SO tired and SO frustrated that I wasn't making any progress. It had taken me 21 hours to dilate to 9 and 3/4 centimeters. I wasn't even fully dilated when I started pushing! I was getting really agitated, I started crying, feeling like it was never going to end. I felt that I was going to be in labor forEVER. I just felt like I couldn't do it anymore. My doctor looked at me and asked if I wanted to keep pushing, which might take another hour, or if I wanted to go ahead and have a C-section. At that point I did not care how that baby came out, just that he did! So we went ahead with the C-section. In-between urges to push coupled with contractions, I slept. I don't remember the ride to the operating room. When I got there, it took 6 times for him to find the right spot in my back for my spinal. I kept falling asleep sitting on the table and they had to keep reminding me to slouch my shoulders and arch my back. Here is my lovely bruise from that ordeal.


It was lovely when the medication sank in and numbed my insides to where I couldn't feel the contractions anymore. It was strange because you can feel pressure, but nothing else. So I could feel them pushing and tugging my stomach but not the pain. The procedure went great, the doctors were joking around and making me laugh. I wasn't worried at all. Hubby was there watching them cut me open and pull out the baby. The baby gave one little cry and that was it! When Dr.P  pulled him out, she said "My God, look at the shoulders on him! There's no way he would have come out vaginally." So there you go...I pushed that whole time for nothing. Go figure..lol. After they cleaned him off and I got to see him, I started crying. He was just so pretty I couldn't get enough of him. At that point I was out. I don't remember anything between that and waking up in the recovery room feeling very sore.


Baby C was born at 10:28 pm, Sunday the 21st of February. 9 lbs, 4 oz, 20.75 inches long. A full head of brownish blonde hair and dark blue eyes. He was lovely  :-D


The next day I got a lot of visitors. Too many really, I would have liked more time for just us three. But it was nice to see how many people care enough to come over and see how we were doing. I got lovely flowers and it was great to be waited on by the nurses. Three meals a day and all the help I could ask for. We felt bad sending the baby off to the nursery at night, but it was also nice to get a full nights sleep. They would wake me up around 4 to feed the baby but other then that, it was good to sleep. Here is a picture of Baby C that morning. He is huge!


The grandparents couldn't be happier :-D


Proud daddy and his baby


 I think Baby C looks like Hubby, but with my nose :-P


He's got dark blue eyes right now with blondish brown hair. We'll see if it changes!


After it all, I don't think about the horrible IV needle, or the back labor. I just can not get enough of this gorgeous little man I carried for 9 months. I love him so much, I had no idea how much it would affect me after he arrived. I get anxious when I'm away from him for too long and I worry if Hubby is doing the right things to take care of him. I love that little boy with all my heart and would not change a thing. How can you not fall in love with the big blue eyes.


Coming home was fun! I was terrified on the ride home, it felt like Hubby was driving like a bat outta hell when in fact he was driving like he normally does. I kept imagining every car ramming into us and all these horrible things. But we made it home just fine and started our new life with a baby. Trying to figure out why he won't stop screaming and whether or not those gas drops are helping. Which bottle should we use and where did we put all the blankets?! Two weeks later, we have most things figured out. He gets bad gas and yes, the drops help. He likes to be on his back when he's gassy and loves to fall asleep on your chest. He likes breast milk better but in a bottle please and thank you. Formula is okay, but please warm it up or he won't drink it. He likes his belly rubbed and loves his bouncer. He looks different already and is growing like a weed. I just wish he would stay little forever. I love the cuddle time and the cute squeaky noises he makes when he's eating. <3 I'm totally in love with this little boy.

Closing in!

As of today, I am 37 and 1/2 weeks along. I have 16 days till my due date but we'll see how far I actually go! 




I have to say, being pregnant makes me more emotional than I would like to admit. Crying is a given, I tear up at movie previews...watching other people have a happy moment on TV...and specially when I feel down. I have a temper to note of anyway, but these emotions just make me so hateful sometimes. I gotta give Hubby kudos for putting up with me. He isn't the greatest all the time mind you...but I wish he would do the dishes more often, help with laundry and cleaning and such. I want him to OFFER to do it. I know he will if I ask for help, but thats not the point!! So I just breezed through my usual cleaning spurt by myself grumbling to myself that it must be nice for Hubby to just sit around and play video games while his 9 month pregnant wife cleans the whole house. But I have to remind myself that I really don't mind cleaning while he plays...because what else am I going to do?! But I still hate that stupid video game...this is what I see more often then I would like...


*sigh*!! It is his only hobby so I have to put up with it no matter how much I don't like it. We have finally reached a middle ground where he's only allowed to play when I have something to do to amuse myself and he's only allowed to play on his days off work. God love him but he drives me crazy..lol.


This has got to be the worst winter I have seen in a long time. Usually in the past years, winter has included maybe one or two snow storms but we have had about 4 big snow storms pass through ON TOP of two big floods. It snows, the snow melts, it rains, it snows again and starts all over. This is what happens when we get too much rain and snow. Thats about 5-6 acres covered by water. Crazy!


Other then the weather...we finished up our birth classes, which I'm really glad I took. Im having a doctors appointment every week now. So far everything has been normal. My belly is measuring about 39 inches and they think I'll have an 8 pound baby. We're really just waiting now! I finally decided on a layout for the baby room after rearranging it about 3 dozen times! I found some name letters and painted them in the room colors I'm trying to stick to.

We took a poll the other day, asking people whether they liked Carter or Cash better for the middle name. Hubby's step-grandma suggested Cash and I really liked it! But after 90% of people who voted said they liked Carter, I decided that I guess we had picked it for a good reason! I just can't wait for him to get here. I really think I'm going to enjoy being a mother...it's something that I have always wanted. To get married and start a family. Sure, I wanted to graduate college first, but everything happens for a reason. :-)

We will get our tax return back within the week
and I hope to get a new entertainment center. The one we have right now doesn't have doors and when C gets older, I don't want him crawling into all the electronics and wires. I think we are finally ready for him to arrive!












What a crazy month!


So now I'm well into my 8th month, at 33 weeks now. :-) Everything is going good and normal. My belly is now 32" (at 32 weeks) and the baby's heartbeat is sounding great. At my next visit I will get to talk to the anesthesiologist about getting an epidural. I want to try and NOT get one but I can't promise anything! 




This month has certainly been an interesting one. We have had one of the biggest snow storms since the 90's. In one night we got 2 feet of snow! It started around 2pm...




by 9pm we had a foot of snow...then the next morning it looked something like this: 







I don't think I've seen this much snow all at once in my whole life! It wasn't icy or anything so It actually wasn't that bad, it just took the road crews about 3 days to catch up and have everything cleared. People got stuck on the freeway overnight for about 13 hours because the snow plows couldn't handle the amount of snow that was falling. On top of that, there were numerous tractor-trailer accidents which caused multiple car pile ups which were near to impossible to get to. The state had to call in the National Guard to help get gas, food, and water to the people stranded. The governor, at first, was upset at hearing how long it took the road crews to clear the roads. But then he actually came out of his house and looked at actually how much snow there was and had to issue a public apology for judging them too harshly. It was clear for about a week but it's been snowing ever since. 


We have about a foot of snow right now and are expected to get more over the night. I haven't left the house by myself in a week. I hate the snow and hate driving in it even more. I get so nervous I'm going to go off the road, and I don't want to be in the predicament considering how far along I am. So I just don't go anywhere. I get Hubby to bring home milk on his way home from work and to bring the mail in. It's hard for me to trudge through this much snow so I just stay home!


All this happened after Christmas. On Christmas it rained...for the 3rd year in a row I think! I was all by myself too...Hubby had to work so it wasn't really a special day at all. I don't celebrate Christmas in the religious sense because it wasn't really Jesus' birthday. It's just a pagan holiday that's turned into a commercial monopoly so I don't mind staying home and not doing anything. It's just another day to me. I appreciate the fact the family's use the day to get together and spend time with one another, I just don't like the commercial side of it at all. You are obligated to buy people presents now a days or they think that you're a grinch. It's just gotten silly. So that was my holiday! 


We went down to Virginia to see my parents the weekend after Christmas and when we came back, our house had been broken into. I couldn't believe someone would do that and it makes it worse because it had to have been someone that knows us and where we live. I posted on my Myspace that we were leaving for the weekend which is how they knew that we wouldn't be home, even though my car was still in the driveway. They jacked the back door open, went straight to the bedroom and took all my jewelry then went to the kitchen and took some of Hubby's prescription medications. They HAD to have known us personally which is a huge blow. I've never felt so violated in my life. It's a nasty feeling that leaves you feeling vulnerable and extremely mad, specially because there's nothing you can really do about it. Thank God, they didn't take my expensive jewelry that belonged to my Grandmother. Somehow they overlooked that. Whoever they were, they knew us as a couple, where we lived, and have been in our house before. Here's the footprints coming from the back door to the bedroom...






I just hope they get busted and put away, somehow. 


On a happier note, my one big Christmas present from Hubby's dad:





a new stove!! I love it :-) We couldn't afford presents for one another really, but we got close friends and family what we could. 


Other then that, it has been a pretty normal month. I have a birthing class on Tuesdays, when the weather allows, that I really enjoy! I know you don't have to take it but this is my first child and I want to do it right. There's no way you can know everything that's going to happen and I really think that this class is going to be extremely helpful. Specially when it comes to breast feeding, it's very informative, since I want to try that. My mom breast fed me till I was almost two and I believe that's why I don't have any allergies at all. I don't understand why people DONT. I know it's hard at first but that doesn't mean that it's impossible. The female body was made to feed your child so you should try harder. I just roll my eyes when I hear that it was too hard, it wasn't working, or the baby was always hungry. According to my doctor, that is how it usually starts out but your baby IS getting enough food, they just feed often when they are that young. Women have been having baby's for thousands of years and are still having them in third world countries where they don't have bottles, antibiotics, or birthing classes and those babies are growing and staying (relatively) healthy. I'm sure it will be harder then I expect, or maybe it will be easier then I expect! but I still plan on trying my hardest to feed my baby the best way I know I can. I want to be a good mom and I don't like hearing other people who take shortcuts, it just seems wrong to me. It seems like everybody on TV just stuffs a bottle in the baby's mouth as soon as they are out of the womb! Crazy...


I've been told to pick a pediatrician before the baby is born, which to me, is nerve wracking. What if I pick the wrong one?!?! I guess you can always change your mind, but it feels like such a big responsibility. :-P On top of that I feel like I should have their college fund ready for them to go off to college...I don't want my child to have to take out loans because those are just a quick ride into a huge pile of debt. And insurance!...*sigh*...so much to do!